Friday, September 02, 2011

Adapt Or Die. (name that movie)

Changes. Transitions. They're the only definites in my life. Well, in general. Besides my family.

I sit here, having moved from salesperson to unemployed person to optical tech person; from involved-with-someone-on-the-way-to-marriage person to single person; from roommate to living alone person. All of this within a few months. Well, the transition from salesperson to optical tech took a little longer, but still not longer than a year.

So, in one year I have flipped my life upside down.

And I'm not quite steady yet.

I'm still not sure what I want, but I'm narrowing down what I don't want. I guess that's half the battle. I know I'm lucky and blessed to have the family that I do, and the ability to adapt easily to new situations. There are people that bump up against life so hard that they are constantly wounded and bewildered. I will always be grateful for my ability to roll with things as they change.

I can't stop eating Nilla Wafers. That's not a euphemism. I literally have a hard time not sticking my hand inside the box. They're just too delicious.

Here's what's on my sleep deprived, Nilla wafer stuffed mind today: (because the Internet needs to know)
1. I need to stop by Old Navy on the way to work. I need a new bar shirt that's sexy without trying too hard.

2. I need a massage. Seriously. My spine is compressing into my heels and it hurts in the morning. That sucks.

3. I miss my boyfriend. But I can't go back. Things will end up the same as they were and I don't want to move backwards. Forward motion is key.

4. Why is it that I always want to party harder when I'm tired? I move past the point of wanting to sleep and into a manic zone. Like a little kid that's overtired, maybe.

5. I need to get back to work.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

First of all, your spine ends at your tush, so it can't compress into your heels, but I'll also you were using figurative speech. Second of all, go get that massage girly! You know you need it when you are trying to propel that "forward motion" to get away from that ex.